Was recently looking through some old pieces, and came across this one. Definitely an oldie, but thought I might as well post it.
Let me offer a few words, not on why I’m a Christian, but on why I bother with Christian theology. Why spend as many years as I have on its study? It’s a fair question, and deserves as thoughtful an answer as I can muster. The following, then, are some of the reasons that keep resurfacing as I continue to think through this little exercise in self-knowledge.
Here’s what stands out as basic. (1) I must just love it. I can’t get beneath this. Love is bedrock. Let me try, then, and count the ways.
(1a) I love the questions theology asks. As I learned from Nicholas Lash, and Lash from Thomas before him, nothing’s off limits for theology because its remit is nothing less than God and all creation’s origin, life, and destiny in God. The scope is staggering.
(1b) I love how theology asks its question, or perhaps better said, the modes of reflection theology invites. Do you admire the analytic rigor of philosophy? Do you value the raising of historical consciousness afforded by the study of the past? Could you see yourself benefiting from the broadening of imagination and sympathy invited by the close readings of a vast body of literature both ancient and global in provenance? Theology’s got all these bases covered in spades, and then some.
(1c) I love theology’s aims. I’ve said it before somewhere, and I don’t mind reiterating the point here. Theology aims at re-humanizing its students. That’s my shorthand way of saying theology disciplines our habits of mind by exposing our idols, calling out our faithlessness, and converting our loves, so we can reclaim our vocations as creatures and priests before God, members and disciples within the church, and witnesses and neighbors to the nations.
The above loves have impressed upon me what good the thoughtful and soulful study of theology can do. They’ve convinced me that theology trades in knowledge worth sharing. Both the current direction and quality of my own life owe more to my study of theology than to any other intellectual pursuit. And I’m sure other people can profit every bit as much as I have from greater exposure to theological inquiry. So in addition to just loving this stuff, (2) I also must value sharing common goods, and for that reason, theology’s more than repaid my investment of time.
That’s the best I can do right now in terms of searching out and testing what I hope have been my basic motivations these many years.