Confusion about what you are feeling and why you are feeling it is very normal.

The reason is simple: you love lots of things. If what you love and care about shapes what you feel, then the fact that you love many things means you are always going to be simultaneously responding to different pieces of the world around you differently. While you will find that the cares connected to whatever you’ve focused your attention on have the biggest impact on your emotions, you’ll also find that other cares and other situations are always present in the background to some degree. (42)

… however, we need to remember that we will never exhaustively understand all the streams from our hearts into our emotions, and we don’t need to! Instead, all we need to do is bring whatever we do manage to understand to God and entrust him with all the hidden corners of our hearts, loves, and feelings that we can’t see into but he knows perfectly. (50)

Groves & Smith, Untangling Emotions (2019)